Sort Of

I'm almost there. I'm practically there. I can be there whenever I want to. I still haven't sent in most of my college applications yet.

I would bet that I'm in the 90% percentile not submitting college applications early. I really wish that I did, since I could have enjoyed my winter break a lot more, but what's done is done. I'm expecting to submit every single application (excluding my Canadian colleges), and just be done with it all. Of course I still have to submit my SAT score reports, but I'll cross that bridge on January 8th since that's when my scores are coming out.

Even though I should work on homework after finishing applications, that's a job saved for the last weekend.

What does a blind man dream?

Does he see what we see? If so, how would he see what we see?

I saw this question on the internet, and I couldn't help but wonder what the answer could possibly be. This is all of course, on the premise that the man was born blind.

These kind of questions always get me in a philosophical state of mind. For the question mentioned above, there is a definite answer since many blind people have been questioned about it, but even silly questions get the best of me: What happens when Pinocchio says his nose will grow?

I'm pretty sure that I'll always be in interested in this kind of stuff. My only hope is that I'll be able to get over them easily since there are no real answers to the large majority of these questions.

Xerces

There's been one song that I've been obsessed with for about a month now. The song is from an album that I downloaded over a year ago, and at that time, I hated it. I listened to it again and since my taste in music has changed over the year(s), I really really really like some of the songs. The one in particular that I'm talking about is Xerces by Deftones.



It calms me down so much whenever I listen to it. I don't know enough about music to say what genre it would be, but it has a metal-ish sound to it while sometimes being very smooth and mellow. I'm hoping that for all the songs I hate right now but have on my computer, I'll eventually fall in love with as well.

P.S. I haven't finished much of my college applications

College

Like everyone else in senior year who's been procrastinating, it's crunch-time. There's not much time left for me especially, since I have an internal deadline from my high school.
My goal right now is to get accepted into a decent college. I'm pretty sure that I'll be able to get into a couple of schools with some confidence, but for the rest of my schools, I really have no idea about or I'm pretty sure I won't get into them.
To make matters worse, I can't seem to find good ideas to write my supplements on, and I keep getting sidetracked by other things in my life when I find time to get them done.
I sincerely hope that by the time I write my next blog, I'll have finished at least half of my college applications.

Or maybe not. Depends on how my life goes.

The Cold

It always surprises me how much I like cold weather when it's hot outside. It surprises me even more that the opposite holds true as well. And whenever it becomes cold after a long spree of being in the scorching sun, I start wishing it was hot again. I guess I'm a hypocrite but what can I say. I forget the past easily but I try not to. When there's nothing to remind me of the past, my memories slip by me like a cold breeze.

It's pretty cold out right now. I have the window open but in ten minutes I'll most likely be shivering. Thirty minutes after that, I'll open the window again because it'll get too stuffy and the cycle goes on.

I'm starting to shiver now. I'd still say the cold is better than the heat.

SATs

I didnt get above 2200. I said that if i can't get over 2200, if i can't get over 2100, then i'm screwed for my goals. I got over 2100 so i'm not totally screwed, but it still doesnt feel every good that i couldn't get above my goal. The real problem is that i might not be able to take it again. I know that i can get over 2200 if i study just a little more, but i completely forgot that my school doesn't proctor the SAT in december, so i signed up too late and everywhere within a 2 hour drive of my house is full.

Just needed to get this off my chest. Such an asian worry.

Working Out

I worked out my entire summer break with almost no breaks in my routine. The only time i had to go off of my routine was when i went to my grandpa's house, where no gym was available for me to go work out at. I gained about 2-3kg but was still frustrated that i didnt gain any more in over two months. Once summer break ended, i chose to stop working out since my schedule would become pretty packed and the gym i went to had a pretty long commute. Over the course of a couple of months, i lost the 2-3kg i had gained.

Of course i was frustrated again. I was frustrated before that i had only gained 2-3kg, but losing the precious 2-3kg that i had gained so quickly was surprising to say the least. At this point, i gave up on trying to make any gains until i had a 3+ week break in school, which i could use to go work out. Luckily, the school gym became open for use in the mornings which i decided to take advantage of. I go with a few other people who live near me and although i have to get up over an hour earlier than i would normally have to, i feel it's worth it since i dont have to go on feeling down. Whether or not ill be able to make any gains is something i dont know for sure yet, but its worth a try since experience gained will help me not make the same mistakes again. Ill probably post back on this in a month or two. Its somewhat likely that i could stop by then if i get too backed up on school work and college applications.